Yearning

I can't decide whether I
want
need
And I wonder if the decision
is really up to me
Or if what I long for
is also what I breathe

Whether it's
you
not
If I'm too stubborn or scared
to take even a well-aimed shot
To let you take part
in the how/where/why/what

What is my reply to the
heartbeat
heartburn
To jump into the lesson
and to finally then learn
Or pass it by altogether
and for always, still yearn?