28 March, 2012


Sometimes I feel silly writing blog posts... Where's the point in it? Even the word, 'blog'... definitely does NOT make the favourites list...

But I'm a bit way-too-happy to not ramble right now.




19 March, 2012

Instagram Top 10 - Cambodia

18 March, 2012

'Teenage Dream'

This was the maid of honour's 'speech' at my brother's wedding. It was actually a song that turned into a whole bridesmaid fiesta! To the tune of Katy Perry's Teenage Dream.

They met at church when he just hit puberty
And she was wearing her little red beanie
This is the start of their epic love story
He tried to win her playing the best friend card
But it was harder than rapping to 8 Mile
She wasn't ready for your bushman charms—or the farm!

Oh poor Josh—took her 7 years
To see you were the tops!
What's the deal with chicks these days? I dunno.
Just blame Paula & Craig!

[Ch 1]
Was Josh's one and only
Teenage dream
One time he drank too much and licked her feet
That's what you do when you're young and in love, you're young and in love.

His heart broke
When she told him that he wasn't her bloke
She wouldn't even send a Facebook poke
But he kept tryin' and that's no joke no that's no joke

And so one day while watching a DVD
She turned to him & said 'I've been real douchey,
'I couldn't see that you were the one for me.'
Now take my hand and we'll be camping buddies
We'll storm the farm and shoot every living thing
You be my prince and I'll be Princecily

They'll go all the way tonight "quad-biking"
– that's love!
Hope you've got protection on, "quad-biking"
Can be pretty rough!

Josh & Cec
You've gone and got yourselves good and hitched
Who would have thought that it come to this?
Now run away and don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

Your lives start
Now that you've said 'til death do us part
It's two best friends who have one heart
You took the leap now don't ever look back
Don't ever look back

He's gonna get your heart racing
When he wears that ring
He's your teenage dream tonight

She's gonna get your heart racing
She's your yang to your ying
She's your teenage dream tonight (tonight, tonight...)

Ahhh, much laughter.

13 March, 2012

"Let meeeeeeeee entertain you!"
is what I sang to a notion this one time, before it betrayed me.

12 March, 2012

Instagram Top 5 - Esther

Lower still.

Almost can't help but laugh as I witness my entire life being stripped back.

Last year it was my identity in my 'skills' and my study.
It was going overseas, out of my comfort zone and into completely new territory.

And now I'm back, and my comfort zone is no longer what it was.

I have no money.
I have no car.
I am soon to have no job, and no house.
In the space of one month, three of my very best friends have moved to far away, separate places.

I laugh because through it all, I see God at work. I laugh because even though it may look and feel like I have nothing... I really have everything I'll ever need.

And I'm excited to get to the end of this year and be able to give God all the glory, because, I sure as heck ain't gonna be able to do it by myself.

Let's not twist this up in feelings of abandonment.
Let's not push it as a need or a habit or another broken piece.
I'm not broken. I've been made whole.

I'm just so crushingly sad, because I miss you, and I want you to come back.

And as I sit here, wiping the tears away, it all starts to flood in.
How many more of the people that I love will leave me this year?
How many more people that I crave will unknowingly break off another part of my soul and take it with them when they leave?

This is the song I can not get out of my head,
And the feeling I can not get out of my heart.

05 March, 2012

Today is one of those days where my heart just aches a little.

It feels like loss, though I've lost nothing.

It feels like apathy, though I really do care.

It feels like unbelief, though I do know Him.

It feels like unworthiness, though I've been told otherwise more than ever.

I don't know why the contradiction, can't fathom why the motionlessness, can't answer why the melancholy.
The temptation to fall back is so strong today. It feels too strong for weak little me to fight.

And this is why I want you.

My strength should come from God. From His joy. His grace should refresh me, His mercy make me new each morning. Should. It should.
But today all I want is you. I need you. I need to know you. More importantly, today I need you to know me, I need you to remind me why, to bring me back from the brink, to turn the lights back on, to remind me that it is finished. But I don't know you, and I don't know who you are, and today, I don't know if I'll ever know you.

And maybe that's the source of my little heart-that-just-wants-to-be-loved ache.